I was diagnosed with melanoma this week, and having a difficult time taking it in. I am 7 weeks post partum, never imagined 2015 being the best, yet worst year at the same time. I am extremely emotional.
I went to see the dermatologist because of a cherry angioma above my left eye. I noticed this ugly red thing after delivering my baby girl. I was having such a hard time with my body changes, and this did not help.
While at the derm office, the PA asked when my last skin assessment was done. I kind of laughed and said 'I've never had one.' She then asked if I wanted one while I was there. Again, I laughed and said 'sure why not.' I never imagined finding anything. She removed two suspicious moles and recommended biopsing them. I almost did not let her do that because I wasn't sure if it was covered by insurance.
I left the office and did not think twice about the moles or biopsies.
A week later, I got an email saying that my online patient portal had new lab results. It was 3am. I could not view the results but saw a note from the PA to the doctor that stated 'these are the results for the suspicious melanoma I told you about last week. Please contact patient and let me know how it goes.' The office did not open until 8:30, talk about 5 long, terrifying hours waiting for an answer.
I went in and spoke with the doctor. She told me it was caught early and that 'everything will be okay.' Well I'm a registered nurse, and you never know that 'everything will be okay.'
I am waiting to follow up with an oncologist, appointment is next Friday. This will be a very long, emotional week. I try to be positive but all I can think about is my 7 week old baby. I'm terrified to find another spot, I'm terrified to go outside. I'm honestly just a mess right now.
Please send prayers and positive vibes as I am sending to you all ❤️